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(Cross-posted from my LJ because fuuuuck.)

OH MY FUCKING GOD. That fucking bitch.

Background: So. Mikel. We love each other, but we can't be together for complicated reasons. We're still into each other. He turns other guys down, hasn't even jerked off to anyone but me in months.

And this kid, Joe. He's been trying to seduce Mikel. And yeah, he's not interested. Especially not in a guy who looks and acts like a little kid. So when Joe turned eighteen a few days ago, he sent Mikel these "erotic" pictures. Mikel got totally disgusted. (I was somewhere between irritated and gently amused.)

Whenever Mikel comes home complaining about guys hitting on him or his friends trying to set him up, I'll joke and say "Tell him you've got a very jealous Russian army guy with a machine gun." Or something like that. So we decided that I'd write an email to the kid, pretending like I was a big dumb intimidating Slav about to beat the shit out of him for moving in on his territory. We thought we'd scare the kid away, or at least convince him that Mikel does have a guy. Mikel and I were laughing and making jokes the whole time. I felt sorry for the kid, I didn't want Mikel himself to have to break his heart.

Joe sends me back this email about my ignorant illiterate immigrant cock, which I thought was hilarious. Mikel got kinda mad, but it was still funny. So I sent him back this email like "IN MY HOME COUNTRY I VAS GREAT POET. >("

Then he sends me
Mikel doesn't love you. If he did, why wouldn't he be with you right now? Or why aren't you here with him? I've never even heard your name around here other than out of his mouth. Have you ever even been near him? Smelled him and touched his body? I have. Have you been too busy in Russia making your so called “living” as a poet? Honey, I'm not xenophobic. The only phobia I have is of people like you being with people like him. You don't deserve him. I don't have to see you to know this. The way you talk and the way you think make it obvious enough. You're below him and certainly below me. So I'm not too sure why you're even in the picture.


Yeah, that hit kinda close to home. I didn't get too upset, but Mikel got really mad that he was speaking to me that way. He said "You know I haven't slept with him, right?" And I waved that off, yeah, of course I know that nothing's happened between them, it hadn't even occurred to me to interpret it that way. I figured now that I'd talk to him calmly, explain that Mikel really wasn't interested in him, that I myself had no animosity towards him and just thought that trying to scare him off would be easier on his feelings, but I decide against it. We probably wouldn't gain much by it. About an hour after his last email he sent me an email saying simply "Ah. Well I see that shut you up." ("BUUUUURN," I commented. Mikel complained about what a child he was being.) I figured that would be the end of it. But no.

NOW I'm pissed. He sent me an email titled "Sorry, buddy." saying "I sent Mikel this picture about two hours ago of an email you supposedly sent me." The attachment read
Joe. I thought last night after your final email. I felt sorry not because you want Mikel and can't have him, but just because you want him. There are things you don't know about him. If you did, you wouldn't be interested. Most of the time I'm not even interested. I would never tell him this because like I said before, he's in love and in lust with me. But I have others. Other men who are here with me. Sometimes I wish Mikel would be more willing to do the same. Be with
others. But he is too in love. I am sorry you will not have a chance, comrade. But you shouldn't be Don't be ungrateful and relay this email back to him. Remember I'm helping you.


So I sent an email off to Mikel all casual-like, saying "Okay, your little friend is a fucking psychopath" ... "Obviously, it's doctored. (Apparently he thinks we actually go around calling each other "comrade." Good lord.) I don't think you bought it even for a minute, mind, especially since he writes me like a bad Soviet villain, but I figured you'd want me to confirm things for you, that it's faked. Like fuck I have other guys! Nobody does it for me but you."

I didn't want to show him how pissed off I really am. How fucking dare he try to hurt Mikel like that? How fucking dare he? I don't know if he's fucking crazy or if it's just that he's such a child that he doesn't understand what he's trying to do. I hope that he's just not considered it fully. I'm already fucking worried about what he might to do to Mikha if he's a nutcase.

God, why tonight, of all nights? Mikel is going to be really upset and vulnerable because he's got some shit going on tonight. I hope there's no chance that he actually takes this kid seriously.

ETA: And, of course, he does. Murphy's Law. He practically raised this kid, knew him as a sweet guy. And Joe is leaving him voicemail messages, sobbing and saying how sorry he is that he's being fucked over, saying that he wants to come over and cook for him, go out and buy cheesecake. He really is a fucking sociopath, how can he act so well? And I myself swore on the Koran that he was lying. I swore on the Koran that I love him, that I want him still, that I have no other man, and everything else. That is serious, serious business. I never thought that I'd be in a situation where I'd have to swear on the Koran. So now Mikel either has to believe that I'm lying to him, or he has to believe that the kid he's known from birth is a sociopath. I hate this. Why tonight, of all nights? He can't handle this, not now ...

ETA ETA: This is a fucking nightmare. Mikel's upset. I'm fucking terrified for him. I tried to make him promise that he wouldn't do anything crazy tonight and he said, "I can't." I'm scared. This is beyond anything else - you don't know what it would do to him if he honestly believed that I said that. I'm all he's got. God, why doesn't he believe me?